Love yourself.

This is a phrase we so often hear nowadays but what does it really mean?

For the longest time, I thought loving yourself meant loving yourself unconditionally.

Recently, I started to feel like it could mean a lot more than just that.

If I were being 100% honest, I would say that I have a difficult time loving myself.

I never felt comfortable with the idea of it.

I don’t know how it all started…

I think at first it started out small.

I feared being vulnerable so I put up a wall.

As I started to put up walls it became easier to hide behind them.

After a while, the walls got so high I didn’t know who I was without them.

This caused me to deal with depression and anxiety for a good number of years.

So about 3 years ago I started to make a conscious effort to change within myself.

The past couple of years, this idea of “loving yourself” has intrigued me. I guess it intrigues me because the meaning can be different to every person.

To me, loving yourself meant digging deep and breaking down the walls I created.

I let go and said goodbye to a lot of toxic relationships that were bringing me down.

I learned to say “no” to things I didn’t want to do.

I said “yes” to things I always wanted to say yes to but was afraid to do so.

I took on challenges that I thought I couldn’t achieve and each time I felt like crying, screaming or laughing. I allowed myself to cry, scream and laugh.

I allowed myself to feel.

I allowed myself to let go of fear.

And I allowed myself to be vulnerable.

In doing so, I felt free and for the first time in a long time I felt joy.

I share this vulnerable side of me today because I don’t think I am alone when it comes to feeling this way. It’s difficult to be honest with yourself and admit the things you rather hide but I personally found that after I admitted the truth it was easier for me to change.

I was inspired to share my story today after I was approached by a fellow blogger and #GirlBoss Newsha from AASHA Blog. Her blog and business focuses on empowering & motivating women everywhere (isn’t that bad ass?).

Newsha had reached out to me asking if I was interested in collaborating with her for her new t-shirt line she’s coming out with. Check out her line here.

When I took a look at her t-shirt line (which had a lot of cute designs) I instantly fell in love with this “love yourself” t-shirt. The drawing is by an artist called Alba Jimenez J. She’s really quite talented so be sure to check more of her work here.

I’d like to finish this blog post by sharing a poem I read last year written by one of my favorite writers Cara Alwill Leyba.

Self Love

The most wonderful love

is the kind of love

where someone stops time

simply to make you happy.

The kind of love

where someone travels to the wide ends of the Earth

just to see you smile.

The kind of love where someone

makes you a hot cup of coffee

each new morning

and makes sure

you have clean sheets

every dark night.

The kind of love

where someone tells you

that you’re doing alright

even when you know you’re not.

The kind of love where someone

makes you feel understood,

even when you know you’re lost.

The most wonderful kind of love

is when someone else can give you

all of these things,

or none of them.

Because the most wonderful love

is the kind of love where

you will always be able

to give these very things

to yourself.

I’d like to thank Newsha for collaborating on this blog post with me. I really love this shirt and I hope you can all show her some support by visiting her page.

You can follow Newsha at:

Blog: www.aashablog.com Twitter: www.twitter.com/aashablog Instagram: www.instagram.com/aashablog and Youtube: http://bit.ly/2i1WF1l

Until next time!

Crissy

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Real Talk is a series on Whimsicalfawn where I cover more personal topics. Care to read more? Check out my blog post about how I learned to let go of my fear & anger here

*Outfit details: Love Yourself T-Shirt c/o of AASHA Blog, Skirt: Noir, Military Denim Jacket: Free People, Black Tights: Purchased in Japan, Lip Wristlet: Jessica McClintock, Boots: Soda, Sunglass c/o of Sunglass.LA*